How many times?

Come to think of it...many times, we are who we are. I mean the wiseman would say that we can be who we want to be but most of the time we really dont know who we want to be...we're just who we are..how many times have the smokers said they'd quit smoking?

But if we are lucky, and most of the time the lucky ones are really those who try really hard to get what they want, then we can make it happen. Then we remembered all our efforts and say that this is what I did to achieve this and that. But along that way a lot of efforts would seem to be wasted. So I guess with some things that we really want to get or achieve, we should put our heart on them, FULLY...cause little by little and as we grow older and wiser, we would realize that those who started out really high or at the top (especially those who bragged about their position) would soon be at the bottom...

When my friends and i were in highschool we were not the "coolest" among our batchmates when it comes to being siga (bullying) and fashion and gimmicks and style and all of those teenage craps (which at that time even us thought was cool) but we tried really hard, of course, "to belong" peer pressure and all...

But academically we were fine. We were very good, i think. My hypothesis at that time was if a class has intelligent and studious males on it, then it is a great bunch of students...females of course are expected to be good students (not just in studying but in behaving in class as well).

So now 9 years after high school, my friends and i can look back and say it was all worth it. To be very close and just be a solid group among our batch and not mingle much with those who we're "cool". To be very young and curious but still have that sense of responsibility and knowing the boundaries of our actions. To be who we really are and not pretend on being the best!

Where are those "cool" people now? What have they become? (sigh)